I know, JJ.
It's tough at times, innit?

Because I'm different.............

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"Time is simply the mechanism that keeps everything from happening all at once."

So sorry, but I had to interject.
Candle.

It gives me so many memories.............
So many thoughts.............who and for whom.

Let my entry be
\
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Snuffed.

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"Time is simply the mechanism that keeps everything from happening all at once."

Just had a PM from youtube, which is unusual.
She told me she knows JJ also.
Told me she knows nothing about our past, but wishes to, because she was there as well.
I tried to vet her about a few things, and she indeed proved most of them out.

I think it is one of her friends trying to call me out.
There are thousands of them on the net.

I think I should run.....................maybe/

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"Time is simply the mechanism that keeps everything from happening all at once."

I should have run faster, from all my troubles.
I could not. I skidded and wiped out all at times for what I thought were my most important ideals./

I lost them all.///////////////

I gave a shit a lot, as opposed to many, and indeed I was oopposed to many.

I stand now at Owl Creek Bridge.

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"Time is simply the mechanism that keeps everything from happening all at once."

I am leaving now. Return is hard.

May not.

I have backups, I have friends.\

None of them is really prepared.
For my end.
I have plans in place, none of you know what I can do in short order.\\

I am nearing, not there yet/
I can hold my end up for they tell me a few years yet./

My truth, my fiction.

So,k now you know now why I run from facts..............they are not my friends.
Maybe they were wrong.................maybe a fiction. Maybe I share too much with you as nobody else does...............I cannot decide................................................................

Maybe I have nobody else........maybe I do not care,k maybe nobody else dfoes.l.

Maybe.

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"Time is simply the mechanism that keeps everything from happening all at once."

Actually, what I meant was to say..............
F. You, Vietnam.
So many crazy times, and now he is gone as well.

I am lost in a world of no people who understand.

I cannot for long continue in this manner.\
I seek release.
I now understand Robin.
And why he could not continue.


Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.


I grit my teeth and carry on. No worries.

Meow.

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"Time is simply the mechanism that keeps everything from happening all at once."

To paraphrase, I'm Seti's Baby Gurl........ And you best some day learn to lay your hands off.

I am not immortal nor immutable, but.....one day you shall learn that I have done a fine service to this project and have earned the right to be a bit abusive once in a while when I get lost.
You see, it is you I rely on to reighn me in and bring me back home.-
You volunteered for the task, my friend. Sorry if you perhaps did not know just what in involved at the time.

Now you do. And I only ask that you don't misunderstand what it is you are asked to do. Just maintain order, whack me when I need it, stand back, and get ready for the next wave...LOL. Not so hard, is it??

And, sorry. Short of dyin', you ain't gonna be rid of me soon.
Cuz...........Stuck like glue....................

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"Time is simply the mechanism that keeps everything from happening all at once."

All I wanndo is share..............and love you all.
It is what I was born to do.

Please, let me continue on my journey and perhaps take it with me.


Might not be easy..........I take a lot crazy turns, and in the past some of you have not approved of them.

I never relied on your approval. I have always relied upon my heart.

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"Time is simply the mechanism that keeps everything from happening all at once."

Dammit...................
I was almost ready to go public with that post and hit the freakin' button just a few moment before I was almost ready.

What I wanted to say was.............

I am not quite ready to back down.
I never shall be.
But, if you give me the room, I shall back down from the room gracefully and not throw any grenades. Work for you?

More lives have been lost over love than politics, believe it or not.
And, I have a gurl, and do not wish to sacrifice anything on the alter of being wrong or right these days./

I can take it all the way if you wish. You know I bullshit.

But what you may or may not know is that I have more resources at my disposal than you might fathom as a simple cruncher, so this should not escape you.

You should respect a man who spends half a grand on Seti each month.
That is what I do, dear friends. Thousand dollars every couple of months to keep the lights on and the crunchers powered up.

Think I am bullshitting, are ya.............
My last power bill was $628.48 now due in a few days.
I do not bullshit in that regard, friends.

My friend, MJS, is the other true single home user to achieved such goals.
He is chasing me,k and done not ask for such acknowledgement.\\
He has done much for the kitties.

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"Time is simply the mechanism that keeps everything from happening all at once."

And ya know....................
I am giving a rat's petoot what I share with you these days.

It has become most evident that most of your either///////////

1/ are too ignorant to understand the significance of what I share with you or numnber

2/ You don't give a shit.

Either way, I see I have been wasting a way lotta time trying to share some of my life with your sorry arses.

I am gone from the stage now.

What you HAVE to...oh, I guess you don't HAVE to.

What you HAVE to realize is that my reality is NOT the same as yours.
Simple fact, simple truth..........we do NOT live on the same planet.

I own this one, bought it from God about a hundred thousand years ago for a few shiny beads and bangles. He was fascinated by them...as were his ancient corn huskers. Of course, they had to get lessons from the Indians...
Take An Indian to Lunch.........

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"Time is simply the mechanism that keeps everything from happening all at once."

OK... Dance the boogie.

There ya go now..[/url]

Follow it from there.

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"Time is simply the mechanism that keeps everything from happening all at once."

but berware the russian or european women.............
They shall take you down.
Meow then.
A russian pole dancer?????
No more blonde jokes././
Not your average pole dance, this.
Ten meows up.
And she gets ten meows down as well...LOL.

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"Time is simply the mechanism that keeps everything from happening all at once."

I have to ask again.........

And one last question before I get some sleep.............

I'll love y'all 'till I die..................but.

What am I to...............you?

I leave you with that question, because I am really very unsure.
Got to go right now,k?
I just have to try to sleep.
Maybe when I wake up, you shall have figured the question out, and can tell me then.

What am I..to you?

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"Time is simply the mechanism that keeps everything from happening all at once."

Simply said.
And true.
I don't give a rat's arse/

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"Time is simply the mechanism that keeps everything from happening all at once."

What more can I say...LOL.
I launched this cut and got a chill up and down my spine.
Jett baby.

It's the eyes.........

Not everybody realizes this, but Joan has done a lot of touring and performances for those in our military service. She has much respect for them and has traveled abroad to share herself with them.

She is so much more than just a rock and roller.

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"Time is simply the mechanism that keeps everything from happening all at once."

Ooops....
Just ran to the store to get some reinforcements.
On the way, saw a wreck.
Not involved myself.

Two vehicles attempted to occupy the same exact moment in the space time continuum...did not work out too well for either.
They did accomplish it.......kinda.

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"Time is simply the mechanism that keeps everything from happening all at once."

Have a nice day yourself, Zappy.
No offense taken.

Meow.

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"Time is simply the mechanism that keeps everything from happening all at once."

Something else I need to share with you.
Brenda Lee at 15yo.

And another one, who I knew about, but few have known.
You ever hear of Charlene Arthur?

I suppose not. I did.
I, as you know, traveled a bit in my youth.
Nights were a bit of an adventure for me back then.
I saw a lotta late night shows wherever I was.\
I saw some things that to this day, were nothing like any mainstream music I had heard before.

I saw some things that never were supposed to be recorded, much less taken to the charts,.

I has some flings, this was after JJ. My timeline is skewed a bit,.
OMG...I was there.

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"Time is simply the mechanism that keeps everything from happening all at once."

There are things over the years that I should have said to you.
And many more that I said and should not have.

What remains is my life in front of you. Good AND bad.

It is all I have to offer at this point in my life.

If it is not sufficient, I shall pass without further whimper.
I think I have had my say, yeah?

Time to die.

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"Time is simply the mechanism that keeps everything from happening all at once."

The kitties may have been exposed to Anthrax. Amazing oops.

You think I get sicko about our government........
They are all gonna kill us one way or another.

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"Time is simply the mechanism that keeps everything from happening all at once."