When Tigger passes I am also going to donate a sum to the Fox Valley Human Society in her memory.
And, when I get well enough again to do so, perhaps I shall adopt some new kittyness from them to continue to hold and cherish.

I could perhaps consider a pairing of kitties.....two who should not be separated and hard to adopt because of that. Just pondering.

Any donations to the shelter in honor of Tigger would be much appreciated.

She is not gone just yet, but as you see, I am preparing for the inevitable.

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"Freedom is just Chaos, with better lighting." Alan Dean Foster

Off soon to have another cuddle session with Tigger whilst the outage passes by.
Time well spent.

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"Freedom is just Chaos, with better lighting." Alan Dean Foster

Tigger is still with me this morning, happy as a lark.
Such a wonderful kitty.
What hurts me the most, perhaps, is that she does not understand the shape she is in.
And yet, how wonderful is that, for now?
Kitties are programmed by God to carry on until they cannot.
And that is just what Tigger II is doing....

Meowfortigger.

She does Mark.

I remember the day when my last Budgie died.
He waited until i came home from work.
I felt something is wrong.
I took him in my hands.
Then he just laid down and died.
I will never forget that.

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With each crime and every kindness we birth our future.

If only the fates should be so kind.............as to lay her to rest as she sleeps.
I fear that her kitty breast shall not got got kindly into her good night, ans I shall be endeavored to guide her thusly forward..
I shall give her every moment to embrace her every waking thought.

If it were only so simple.

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"Freedom is just Chaos, with better lighting." Alan Dean Foster

Best place to stick this..............

And if in general, you find in your short hat.........
That things in often you find I'm more wary at...

Tend much to mind your wares than so sorry you were wary at.

Hmm...............

You'll find a 'nother poster much so sorriat.

In short, when a nother you can find as smart as me,
And find another place to put your dunnery.

I am sure you'll find another to take place of me.

I've traded jests with such a sorry lot you.....
And find the test is in supposing that they came from loo.
Loo....hmm loo.
Ahh.

I am sure that I am better than the lot of you.

I know a bowie knife from the lot that you most carrie at.
Can quote most Eastwood moments than you can pull out your bunny sack...
And faster than most you can ever jaculariate........
So I'd find it most appropriate that some of you'd capitulate.

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"Freedom is just Chaos, with better lighting." Alan Dean Foster

Best place to stick this..............

And if in general, you find in your short hat.........
That things in often you find I'm more wary at...

Tend much to mind your wares than so sorry you were wary at.

Hmm...............

You'll find a 'nother poster much so sorriat.

In short, when a nother you can find as smart as me,
And find another place to put your dunnery.

I am sure you'll find another to take place of me.

I've traded jests with such a sorry lot you.....
And find the test is in supposing that they came from loo.
Loo....hmm loo.
Ahh.

I am sure that I am better than the lot of you.

I know a bowie knife from the lot that you most carrie at.
Can quote most Eastwood moments than you can pull out your bunny sack...
And faster than most you can ever jaculariate........
So I'd find it most appropriate that some of you'd capitulate.

Which was what led to this more recent compostium...[https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AcS3NOQnsQM]And so it gosium.[/url]
Might have to start over, let's try again........

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"Freedom is just Chaos, with better lighting." Alan Dean Foster

Every life comes with a death sentence.

But until then, who's in charge?
That would be me.
And until that day, I'm in charge of my life and all I survey.
My life, my cat's life.

It is over when I say it is over.
Not when you say it is.
Not when you ban me for saying some obvious truths.

Not some simple words on a page here. Not something YOU can ever pin down or quantify.

I was a life. I helped people, and I also hurt some.
But that is what life is about.........helping and sometimes hurting.
In the last 24 hours, I have donated so much to so many. Some shall never say 'thank you'....and that is OK, because I did not do so for them to do so.
I did so because it was needed and warranted and believe me, I pick and choose when and where to.

And YOU get to judge me?
No, not really.
My Lord above shall be that judge.
And he and I are gonna have quite the discussion at the gates.
And I am gonna win that debate.
He is gonna look me square in the eye and hand me the key.
Because I have always loved him, and he has always loved me.
That is faith, kids. That is what it's all about.

Meowfortigger.

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"Freedom is just Chaos, with better lighting." Alan Dean Foster

My Lord above shall be that judge.
And he and I are gonna have quite the discussion at the gates.
And I am gonna win that debate.

God or Messiah complexes are typical of Bipolar disorder.

I am not typical.....in the least.

Nor was my assesement in high school, nor one by brain doctors many years later.
I am not typical.

I express fear as anger, tears as fate, love as rejection, hope as life lost.
In short, I suppose I take all that is good in life and turn it backwards, because I have learned that from my life's experience.

A learning mechanism does that................
Rewarding behavior. You learn what you are taught.
I have been led to pain, anger, and hate. The only reasonable response it to embrace all that I have been taught.
Reverse learning is extremely difficult, and at times, not possible.

Not sure I am reprogrammable.

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"Freedom is just Chaos, with better lighting." Alan Dean Foster

Everybody is a product of our individual upbringing. It is how we deal with where we find ourselves after that which decides how we ultimately turn out. We are all individuals, it does not necessarily make us special just because we are different to everyone else, we are just different. It's not re-programming its all about choosing to deal with life in a different way. At present with an ailing cat, you are not in the frame of mind to think that far ahead, and quite understand
Meow for Tigger

Some of us do not have as many choices as you suppose, Chris.

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"Freedom is just Chaos, with better lighting." Alan Dean Foster

It's not what you all did.......\It is who you did it to................
And that who is me, and I am pissed off royally.

Rusty, I guess, or I would have taken control of this before it happened.

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"Freedom is just Chaos, with better lighting." Alan Dean Foster

And always remember this........
Life is generally not about who you F'd.
But who you F'd with.
Both literally and figuratively.

I have done both. Yeah.

Now figure out THAT double entendre.

I could spill the beans again, but that would spoil the joke................

Yeah, still got the light on for her.
Like, foreeeeeeeeever.


We shall kiss again one day.
I can get to her side one way or another..

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"Freedom is just Chaos, with better lighting." Alan Dean Foster

Look, here's where the nuts rub together.

Lori knows all about this, so don't get in a bundle over it.
I have loved JJ since my teenage years, and she has never acknowledged it
I shall not go to my grave without saying so.

She is getting older as well, we are within a few months of age.
Maybe one day she shall open up and admit it, maybe not.

I am not living for that day, but would relish it indeed.
Just to look her in the eye and be able to say.............
"I still love you."
For going on forty years now, I have loved you, Joan Marie Larken.

And I am sure I am not giving up on that broken soul now.
I shall take that single kiss to my grave.

And shall always cherish it. Forever.

Yeah, she always looked a little rough. She slapped me for that stolen kiss there on the street, and then.....smiled and kissed me back.
That is how she grew up. But always that sparkle in her eyes./
Forever, Joan Marie.

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"Freedom is just Chaos, with better lighting." Alan Dean Foster

And, remembering that brought such a smile to my face that I have not had in such a long long time.
Tigger troubles aside for just a moment//.
I have to look back at my life once in a while to remember just how special and remarkable it has been.
I really do complain a bit too much at times.

To quote Joe Walsh, life's been good to me so far. And yes, whether you know it or not, I am rather on track as of late.
At least I thought...
I am scared as hell of everybody on the planet knowing that Mark has pulled back even a bit. And I have. Not yet pulled a Walsh moment. Close, but no cigar.

This is why some men do what they do. I am not totally sober just yet.
That moment may never come to me in entirety. It just might never come.
And I admit that, here and now. And am not entirely sorry about it.

And then this thing called 'fate' raises it's ugly face, and there is nothing further a man can do about it...regardless of will. Some are able to overcome that, and believe that their free will has achieved that.
They are quite wrong. If it was not in their destiny, they could and would not have. It is just not in my cards, kids.

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"Freedom is just Chaos, with better lighting." Alan Dean Foster

Spent the last hour or so listening to Joe Walsh.
He is quite candid about how trashed he spent so many years.

This song sums it up rather well.
"Standing in the middle of nowhere, I didn't have far to fall."

And it turns out the end of the world wasn't so bad at all.

I too, am just Lucky that way.

And, blessed with some good friends as I have found here.

I'm not sayin' that I'm somthin' special...
But you may know my name to some degree..........
Sometimes I can't believe that I'm still standing.
And, it feels pretty good to be me.


Started in the middle of nowhere./////
Didn't have too far to fall.

And yet, here I am.

Amen, Joe, amen.

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"Freedom is just Chaos, with better lighting." Alan Dean Foster

To our ladies..........
Yess, please, can I?

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"Freedom is just Chaos, with better lighting." Alan Dean Foster

Joe Walsh is a great musician and also a great person.
Respect:)
Here he performs Desperado with unfortunately a bad guitar.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v5t1zV6YegM
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=I4HSC5sbwN8

She went through a time when she didn't even appeal to me...............
Shaved her freaking head and.....well, she was still JJ.

Time healed her identity crisis, and she emerged from it after few years Fans, eyes, and hair intact.

I always loved her hair black as the night.

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"Freedom is just Chaos, with better lighting." Alan Dean Foster

She had no idea yet where her life would lead her,
but it was not in MY direction.

It turned out that she turned to gurlz for her life's satisfaction.
And, I never judged her on that choice.
There were signs when Currie and I bedded and JJ joined in.

I was in love with JJ, but took the next beat offer,.....................


And that is why there are no little JJ's running around here.

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"Freedom is just Chaos, with better lighting." Alan Dean Foster

And, before anybody raises a stink about anything factual related to her, this is the JJ wiki.

I may have missed a few facts during our extended separation, but here are the facts.

I do know, but have not communicated for years with, Kenny Laguna, who I believe is her closest friend and mentor 'till present times.

Not my place to be, I guess.
There was just so much going on back then in the Runaways saga that he and I lost touch. Cherry Bomb and all that bit with Cherie.
Bad crash. Too much of this and that and then more or this and more of that.

She has been recovering for years now as well.

Those of us who were the addicts that we were shall always be.
One did not make it..............I remember Sandy very kindly.
s
full Runaways history.

Kenny was and is.......a fine man.
Not such can be said for their first frontman, Kim Fowley......

I shall not say too much here, things about pissing on graves and all.
But, he was an evil influence, even though he got the band started.
He was just a very, very bad man. His only motivation was cash flow, and not the girl's or band's longtime interests. He only wanted to be on record as the world's first and only promoter that fronted an all-girl band. That is all he was after.

I do not think that Joan has come to grips with his abuse, even to this day.
Just my observations of her behavior 'tween then and now, and I cannot speak for her personally, since we have been out of touch since then.

But. I know what I know. And I know too much to suit some, it seems.

I have to say these things loud and clear right now, because I am not sure how long I shall be able to/.

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"Freedom is just Chaos, with better lighting." Alan Dean Foster

And, as I am not sure I really wanna be a GIRL for the rest of my life, consider the alternative.

And I take no No prisoners.

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"Freedom is just Chaos, with better lighting." Alan Dean Foster